Dare to go through the darkness
Yesterday I faced a fear of mine. I dared to distance swim out in ocean water. I’ve always loved swimming but the darkness of deep water terrifies me - of not knowing what’s out there.
With the help of two friends who led the way, I tentatively jumped in. I focussed on the stroke and on my breath, not daring to look down into the depths. And with my friends swimming in front, I followed and began to forget about my fear. I was in the moment and just feeling the sensations of the water.
Eventually, we decided to swim out to the buoy, and as I reached it, I looked down into the darkness of the water and there I saw a beautiful light shining, penetrating the water. It shone and moved in the water’s current and pierced through the darkness with such strength, it was a light I had never seen before. The dark monsters that I imagined were nowhere to be seen, as usual, my expectancy of fear was so much worse than the thing itself.
The thing I thought was so dark and unknown held beauty I never knew was possible, that I was only ever able to see this beauty by going into it head first. I was holding myself back until I pushed through the fear.
What fears have you been facing and learning from? Can you set out to face them this week?
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Have a lovely week!